i still think about him alot. my friends know this, especially my close ones, but it's hard not to when we planned our entire life together. we knew where we were going to get married, and it turns out all he wanted was the concept of a loyal wife. not someone with their own thoughts. i wonder how he sees me, if i'm the villain in his story and he's the villain in mine? but i don't think that matters when i was 16 and he was 19.